why do i feel this way?

by christina bravo
(OR)

Why do I feel this way? What wrong with me? I felt this way before. Why do I feel like hurting myself! This is not right.
As the sharp blades of the knife cut into my skin, theses a quick relief as the blood runs down my arm. All I can do is think…..take my pain away! I don’t want to feel now more. I want to be numb! As the tears run down my face all I can do is cry.
When you look at me do you see this girl that hurts herself? No you see the sweet and beautiful girl. But if you pull up my sleeves then you would see the scars of the unhappy moments. If you look in my eye you would see a girl that’s scared and the needs you!
As I cry all I can see is you with me. If I didn’t have you I would be hat girl that needs help. But all the hard times I have you to be there for me. So I’m the girl that’s sweet and if you pull up my sleeves there is nothing. I will never be that girl that hurts herself again!