tragic love lust loss

by Laura JAYNE SURA
(JAcksonville fl, USA)

there was this guy
who came off as shy
why i
was being super fly
to get a glimpse from his eye
then when we finally hooked up i began to cry
could this be the man ive dreamed of?
why?
feeling nothing through intercourse
is simply a distraction of fear
to feel as if you are not here
slowly makes you disappear
you become a holligram
and the pixels begin to shine
the pieces of you
you see in others, through your eyes
you start to despise
believing their lies
of when you were shining your light
they just used it to be trite
and yes, it is quite
mindboggling to think about
this minds been boggled with wonder and confusion and uncertainty for what feels like a century!
but just know that if your love of your life is out to get you, make you feel like youre not worth it.
the only thing would be to show em that you ARE.
show the world that you are worth it.
dont ever give up
youll feel like walking dead
its like you dont even care and dont want to do anything instead.
living in a life of dread.
where your only scapegoat is your bed.
the place where you rest your head.
and you dream of fancy people.
who get your soul pumpin.
maybe these people CAN offer you something.
but do not steal their soul.
you cannot steal their soul.
lots of people have very strong willpower
i, on the otherhand am lacking.
especially when i have that deafeatest attitude.
dont defeat yourself.
better yourself.
and how do you do this.
pampering yourself.
even despite worry and woe.
you deserve to be happy.
NOW LETS GO.