The Addiction

by CharlesC Skelton
(south carolina)

Some call it crazy
Some call it sick
I call it beauty
The loveyly red and thick
Im addicted to the blade
I cant stay away
Depressed
Sad
Happy
Mad
I cant stay away
The quick second of pain
Gives me a rush i cant explain
Its an art
A dark, curssed art
This addiction is such a waste
But unlike drugs its safe
Its my escape
Its my way out
When im in my world
I take the blade
I count to three
I cut myself to see it bleed
Shallow at first
So theres not much blood
Then i want more
No i need more
So i go back
Carving deeper and deeper
Untill the blood runs down my arm
Off my fingers into the floor
A steady puddle...
Then i tie my bandana back on my arm
I clean the puddle
Wash the blood stained rag
I walk out the door
I smile and pretend im okay
I know at the end of the day
I'll just do it again
I cant stay away