Reply you coward

by Tayla Blight
(Vic)

I want that feeling again, the one I got with you. I've never really told you what I felt the moment I met you. We found each other in the most obvious place. I always felt like I was the little girl lost in the shopping store everyday until you came around. You popped the tightness of air surrounding my mind. You conquered all my fears. You gave me a chance. You made me forget yesterday. I was always homesick but when I was with you I felt content, everything was perfect. I didn’t need to click my red heels and wish to escape from my nightmare, because infact every day with you was a blissful dream.

But now I realize life is unfair. People get hurt, as I hurt you, like you did me. You were just a lesson in life. You’ve taught me and showed me few things. You’ve taught me I can love, that people can care about me. Or so I thought….you showed me the feeling of being in someone’s arms when they mean the world to you. The feeling of compassion, thank you for that. You’ve also showed me that people break promises, which people don’t always hold true to their word. You’ve taught me that you can love someone more than anything in the world, yet hate them just as much. That just because someone says something, that doesn’t mean it’s true, which you still need to learn.. You’ve showed me how bad it hurts to have the guy you love and thought loved you treat you as if you are worthless.. You’ve showed me wonderful things just as well as horrible things. I do thank you for both. You’ve now prepared me for the harsh world I am entering of two-faced people. People who say they care, but don’t always.

I lost the main part of me as soon as you said you don’t love me. Im still hurt but im trying to repair all my insecurities pick myself up off the ground and wear a smile. I know you don’t reply because you just don’t care, says a lot really considering I was once your whole world? Or so you said.. Or could the reason you don’t reply be because you have too much pride to reply to someone that hurt you so much? I need answers. You won’t give them. Is it because im not worth your time anymore, because clearly, even though you hurt me, I’d give you all the time in the world.

Im not trying to ‘win’ you back with this. Because I am moving on, and I am starting to really enjoy life, like you told me to do. I just want to be able to be friends; I really do need you in my life even if it is only a small part. I’ve tried everything. So after me spilling my every thought into this letter, I guess the question is.. Can we be friends, and possibly even have a conversation sometime? Please even though we hurt each other, just have the decency to write back. You don’t understand how happy id be, with whatever response.