my last moments

by clay johnson
(oklahoma)

here i am feeling like i shouldn't have been made
there i go lost and afraid
i need your hand
lift me up so i can stand
show me the way
before i fade away
i needed to be with you
but thats one thing you never knew
i feel crushed and lonely
so i sit here solemnly
im so lost and depressed
i want to be sent to a final rest
so here i hold the knife
i begin ending my life
as the blood flows out of me
and now as you watch you finally see
you struck me down
you obviously saw my frown
as the tears stream down my face
my heart begins to race
as i make the cuts in my wrists
i clench my fists
as i begin to fade away
i think about this as my last day
i lose consciousness
and forget about being depressed
i see you standing there
your still unaware
as i finally die
the ones around me begin to cry
im finally free
to be who i want to be
copywrighted 8/16/10