I'm not waiting

by Leeanna Fischer
(Cincinnati, OH)

Do you know what you are doing?
Do you know? At all?
What you are doing isn’t right,
Or very smart.

You are pushing me away,
Quite quickly I must say.
You might think I’m crazy,
But you say things that shouldn’t be said.

What you say hurts,
You say you regret it.
Once you say something,
No matter what,
You can NEVER take it back.

You have been putting me through a lot.
Pain, misery, depression.
I can’t take it anymore. 
I don’t wanna deal with it.

You want me to wait, 
I don’t think I can. 
You want me to hold myself for you, 
I know I can’t.

I don’t like people telling me what to do,
You tell me too much.
I have other’s taking my side, 
Over stuff you say you don’t do or know. 

I’m done with everything. 
I’m over with everything. 
You can sit there and keep waiting, 
While I’m here, 
Enjoying and living my life.