I Wonder

As another tear rolls down my face
and another peice of my heart breaks
as i take uneven breaths
and i pass out from the pain

i wonder if this is how it will always be
if life will always be filled with secrets and lies
if there will always be people hating and judging you
if u cheer up just to be put down again

as i feel the blade against my skin
and i slit my wrist oce again
as i watch the blood come out
and drip on the floor

i wonder if things will ever change
if i will ever change
if he will ever like me
if ill ever stop losing friends

as i sit here and write this poem......

i wonder what the future will bring.