I love u yet, I hate you!

by Christina Bravo
(OR.)

I love you, yet I hate you.
You make me sick, yet I would die for you
You take me for granted. What would you do with out me?
I love u so much its stupid.
I don't know why I love u as much as I do but....
everyone say's (why do u love him if he treats u like shit.)
And I just say (I don't know.)
No one can tell me how I feel only I can say that.
Why do you love me?....
sometimes I feel so stupid for saying that I love him.
But still its true!
You say ( you love me and you would never hurt me)
but you hurt me with out knowing you do,
and I guess I love you too much to tell you that you do.
Sometimes I just want to yell at you and say...( I don't need this you don't treat me right, and I am tired of it, I love u and I always will but I really don't need this I can find someone that with really love me and not treat me like shit!,)
I can't do it! Every time I go to tell you what I really feel I stop and think of all the thing you have said to me and that I have said to you and then I just can't!
Because I just think of how much I love you.
But in my heart I know I have too. But as I see myself grow I know that one day I well get sick of it the shit you put me throw and give it all back to you.!
I well tell you what you did to me and make you feel how you made me feel.
I don't understand why you treat me like this,....in my mind I think I am just other one of your girls. And one day you will just throw me away.....so when that day comes I will be there to just through you away too. Even tho I love you and I would do any thing for you I am still ready to let you go when ever you let me go. Even if that's tomorrow or next year I will be ready. Yes I will cry and I will miss you but I once let you go I can find someone else that will love me and care for me and really treat me right. Thing that you did not do!
I am writing this letter so when that day comes I can come back and look at this and read how you have always treated me and you may all ways will.
I love you, yet I hate you.
You make me sick, yet I would die for you.
P.S yes I know you don't always treat me like shit...but still u do stand up for me when your other girls talk shit about me. But as soon as I say something bad about them you get upset and tell me that mean, but when they talk about me do u say that? Yes I love you but at the same time I could do better then you.